One year ago today, I woke up, and started my day like any other Tuesday. Except, on this particular Tuesday I wasn’t feeling so well. In fact, I hadn’t been feeling well for a couple of days and so I decided to go see my doctor to make sure that I didn’t have the flu. One year ago today I went to the doctors office and had an appointment that started out just like every other doctor’s appointment I had ever had. But when I walked out of that office, my life was changed forever. That’s because one year ago today, I found out that you were coming. I walked into that doctor’s office the person I had always been- and I walked out of it the person I will be for the rest of my life- your mother.
I remember so many things about that day. I remember telling your daddy that you were coming, and how we stood in our kitchen and laughed because we didn’t know what else to do. I remember telling your Papa Sam over the phone while he was in line ordering food at Chic-Fil-A. I remember laying in bed that night wide awake- a bundle of nerves, and excitement and joy. I remember wondering if you were a boy or a girl and whether or not you would look like me or daddy. I couldn’t imagine what life with you was going to be like in that moment, and I had no idea what kind of parents that your daddy and I would be. But I knew that we loved you. In that very moment that I became aware of your existence I loved you more than I had ever loved anything in this world. And I felt so fiercely protective over you that it was almost frightening.
I had no idea what a ride the next nine months would be. Nor did I have ANY clue about what it would be like once you were here. There aren’t enough words in the world to describe what you’ve done to our world- how you lit it up and filled in the pieces of what was always missing, even if we never knew that something was. On that day one year ago, I couldn’t have known who you would be- our happy girl with the bright smile, who loves to stand and jump and talktalktalk. Our baby who has been a great sleeper from day one, but adamantly refuses to nap. Our snuggle bug who loves to be held, who is curious about the world around her, who thinks that Daddy is fascinating and Mommy is funny. Our babygirl who love music and positively BEAMS when I sing to you. Our biggest girl who already has more facial expressions than the average adult, and who is zooming through each milestone like a true overachiever.
One year ago today I knew things were about to change forever, for the better. And Addie, I thank God every day that they did.
Love,
Me
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